nhk, bir and nyc

Day 22 - I wonder when I'll stop counting.  This is my 22nd day back in the Philippines.  I thought about a blog entry with the title "Missing Kobe" and write the top five things I miss about living in Kobe.  Nah, I was thinking along those lines two weeks ago.  Maybe, I'll do that next time. 
I also planned on uploading all those photos that I took before going back.  Had too many in my folders - the sorakuen garden, pictures with mary, graduation pics with all the kobe fall grads, graduation dinner with Melissa, shinkansen ride, tokyo trip with all the other JDS fellows, embassy visit (Anna, the consul who represented Ambassador Siazon, is a friend and batch mate from UP Diliman), and the flight home.  Scrapped the idea too - got the slow dial up internet connection - very hard to upload pictures. 
So I buried myself in watching cable tv and the main channel - NHK!  Pretty absurd for someone who just weeks ago, wished that she can switch to a channel where the programs are in English.  So, now NHK has become constant in the background, it lulls me to sleep.  Weekends, I wait for the hourly news and patiently sit through until the end where they'll end the newscast with the hourly changing Tokyo skyline.  Good thing I lived most of my stay in Kobe otherwise, every hour would be like a binge in nostalgia...
Then, of course when I am not watching NHK and it's the weekday - I work.  Almost everyday, I drag myself to the bathroom - not the office but the bathroom - I have to prepare to go to the office.  The first few days were kinda different, I even looked forward to going.  Middle of second week - I always see myself stepping aside and thinking - did I really spent seven years working in this office?  I feel like the office is such a small - no, the proper word is - narrow world!  The most incredulous thing is that I used to be contented working and literally spending most of my productive hours in such confining place. 
Talked to Melissa this morning and I really wanted to tell her these things but decided against blabbing these thoughts.  Then, I thought about the next acronym to write - "nyc" came to mind.  I have to take this time to collect my thoughts - ask for guidance and have faith.  i'll find my focus - I just have to because for now the last three letters in the title looks like a pretty good challenge to take up....